A Runcation, A Vacation, and Other Things

Whew! The last few days have been insane - and not necessarily in a good way. I feel like I've been chewed up and spit back out. I've spent the last week trying to figure out some important stuff and make some important plans, but a lot of it has been dependent on other people and that stresses me out! I'm a control freak and hate not being in charge of what's going on. I don't handle stress very well and I have pretty much been a basket case since last Thursday. It got so bad that I spontaneously burst into some sun salutations in the middle of my kitchen while cooking dinner Friday night. Like seriously, just out of nowhere, that felt like the appropriate thing to do I guess?

This weekend I did a whole lot of random things and took exactly zero pictures. Saturday morning my dad and I went on our last long run before our half marathon this weekend. Even though I haven't been training to PR it per se, I know that I have gotten faster since my last half in November (that's what spending the months of November-March training for 2 full marathons will do I guess?). Based on my last couple of long runs I do think I have a shot at a PR, but mostly I'm just hoping to have a good time! The race is in the Outer Banks and we are sharing a house with several friends who are coming to race or just watch. I love runcations! :)

The rest of Saturday I decided to just relax. I got a massage in the afternoon and after that Ben and I got Chinese for dinner and had wine and watched "Your Inner Fish." We caught a little bit of one episode on PBS a few nights earlier and it was so interesting we decided to catch up on the other 2 episodes. It was seriously the most fascinating program I think I've ever seen. Look it up!

Sunday Ben had to work and I had a bunch of homework and housework to do, so that pretty much sums up my day. I did make a breakthrough on what I've been stressing over, though, so that perked me up and made me a little more hopeful. I know I'm being really vague but I don't want to say anything until things are more finalized and official. If I had it my way that would be like, yesterday, but it's not up to me. I'm trying to trust that it will all work out. Just breathe.

I woke up this morning feeling a little bit better - probably because this is the first Monday in 3 months that I didn't have to wake up at 5:30am! It's the last week of classes and I'm already done with my Monday am class. The rest of my classes will be over after tomorrow and then exams start on Thursday!

I've had a lot of self-doubt lately. I've felt completely unable to make the "right" decisions. I've felt defeated. I've wondered why I can't just be "normal." I just haven't been my usual, go-get-'em, I-can-do-anything self. I checked Facebook this morning and when I saw this picture, I knew it would all be okay.

Another thing getting me through right now? Ben and I finally booked a vacation! I'm in desperate need, can't you tell?! Our vacation starts the minute my last exam ends next Wednesday.

Any guesses on where we're going? The answer might surprise you! ;)


  1. don't let self-doubt cloud your judgement or make you second-guess yourself. trust your gut and do what you think is right - that's always a good decision. yay for vacations!!! florida?

    Vodka and Soda

  2. Self doubt sucks. Just power through, the clouds will lift.


  3. Omg that vacation place looks amazing!!! Yay for finally booking it :) I can't wait to hear about your next race. Sounds like it will be a blast. Praying for your unspokens, ma'am. :)

  4. Wherever you're going on vacation looks amazing!! You deserve some rest and relaxation!! :)

    I can't wait to hear about your race! I'm trying to convince my friends we need a runcation to somewhere cool haha.

  5. I've had those same feelings lately... I think it's post-race blues. I worked so hard for Shamrock and accomplished my goal, so moving on hasn't really happened yet. Looks like an exciting vacation! Maybe it'll give you the boost you need. :)

  6. After all your handwork & exams, a vacation is the perfect thing for ya!! Exciting!! Whatever you are stressing over, I am thinking positive thoughts for you. I too am stressing over something my current job situation that I am also being so vague about for the same exact reasons as you. May we both get some good news soon. =)

  7. Yea for vacation! Wherever it is, I'm sure it will be wonderful. Hope exams went well!

    P.S. We all have self doubt from time to time. The good news is that it always passes.