Sunday Sweats [7/27-8/2]: B2B Training Week 8

Monday: Rest day | Met a friend for coffee after work, hit the grocery store, picked Ben up, went home, went to bed.

Tuesday: 4.80 miles @ 8:56 + 3000yd swim @ 2:01/100yd | I had some anxiety when I went to sleep last night (nothing specific, just general) and still this morning, which made my stomach a little unsettled. Nothing much to report on this one. It was 5:45am business as usual 

Wednesday: 18.51 mile bike ride @ 18.46mph + 54 minutes yoga | Not much to say about this one. Biking for only an hour on a flat, straight road feels like such a treat these days. I tried out a recovery yoga for athletes video when I got home, but it was my least favorite of the ones I've done so far. It was a restorative class, which I wasn't expecting. It was a nice break to have an easier class but I didn't feel like I got a lot of benefit from it.

Thursday: 1950yd swim @ 2:00/100yd + 55 minutes spin | I was completely dreading these workouts this afternoon. I tried and tried to convince myself not to do them, but I knew I had no reason not to other than being afraid. I could handle the swim but spin class is so, SO hard. It's a million times harder than regular cycling. But I went anyway, and I guess this kind of counts as a brick because I went straight from the pool to the locker room to the spin studio. The instructor who makes us do arm exercises with dumbbells while on the bike was back. I don't really love the music she plays or the way she structures the class, so I hated nearly ever minute of it, but it improves my cycling so much that I suffer through anyway.

Friday: 5.30 miles @ 8:30 | I got up super early to run in the morning, but it was storming (with the radar showing the worst of it right over us during the time I'd be running) so I went back to sleep for an hour. When I ran in the afternoon it was sunny and 90* out but only 50% humidity, and the boardwalk was mostly shaded by the hotels so that helped. My stats don't lie though - I'm definitely speedier later in the day and when the humidity is down. There was a tailwind for the first 1.5 miles and then a headwind for the rest. I can't decide which is better in weather like this - tailwind makes running easier but has no breeze to cool me off; headwind feels cooler and breezier but it's obviously harder to run into. I got to end this one with a dip in the ocean and my first attempt at stand up paddle boarding though, so that was a nice post-run treat!

Saturday: 35.09 mile bike ride @ 17.46mph + 2.23 mile run @ 8:59 I didn't get to the trail until after 9:30, which feels ridiculously late to be just starting a workout these days. I really didn't even want to go, and if I hadn't already made plans to meet someone there I probably would have bailed on the whole thing. Our ride was...I don't know, I mean, I got through it. Which is basically how every workout is starting to feel...not good, not bad, just enough to get through. By the time we finished it was noon and running was the last thing I wanted to do. I'm so glad I had someone there to talk to and distract me because I think I would have taken at least 10 walk breaks (during a 20-minute run...) if I had been alone. I'm so surprised we snuck in a sub-9 pace (which Garmin tells me only happens because we went from two just-over 9:00 miles to an 8:08 pace last quarter mile) because my legs just didn't want to turn over. And it was so hot out by that time but the trail is mostly shaded where we were running, otherwise I probably would have passed out. 

Sunday: 7.17 miles @ 9:54 | I don't know what's up with me. I didn't want to go on this run from the beginning (stomach hurt, sun sucks, humidity sucks, the usual). I had to go to the bathroom 15 minutes into it and I didn't want to finish after that. I didn't know what to do: scrap the whole thing and have Ben come get me? Run the mile and a half back home and be done for the day? Finish what I started no matter how much it sucks? Try again later in the evening? I never know what to do when I get myself into this situation and it really sucks. I went and sat on the beach for, I don't know, 15 or 20 minutes, until the tide came in enough to force me out of my spot, and then I got back out there. I ended up with just over 7 of the worst miles I've ever run, but I was weirdly proud of getting through this one (even with a 30-minute break, even with a 10:00+ pace on the second try). In the end it wasn't about the mileage, it was about working through some mental junk. I had to work through some stuff like not attaching negative feelings (or any feelings) to my workouts, which I practiced throughout the last 5 miles. Feeling like I'm a quitter or a failure, or feeling frustrated because 6 months ago I could run 7 fast miles in my sleep and now I can't do that to save my life...those feelings do not help me or serve me in any way. I can't turn them off at will, but I can recognize that they are there and then dismiss them.

This Week
Swim - 2.84 miles 
Bike - 53.60 miles + 55 minutes spin 
Run -19.50 miles
Yoga - 54 minutes
Total miles - 75.94

B2B To-Date Training
Swim - 17.73 miles 
Bike - 399.16 miles + 312 minutes spin 
Run - 156.20 miles
Total miles - 573.09

Week 8 Reflections:
+ It's going to be a damn miracle if I actually make it to the finish line.
+ I miss being able to run longer distance. I'm not saying that in a negative way, but in a factual way. I just do. I identify more as a distance runner than a triathlete and am already looking forward to getting back to that this fall/winter.
+ I could fill a whole post with how I feel about this week. For starters, I made the mistake of letting myself think that step-back week is synonymous with easy week, when in fact that isn't the case at all. I got to somewhat of a breaking point on Friday night, when it finally caught up to me that all I've really been doing the last couple weeks is work-train-eat-sleep-repeat and I just don't want to live like that. I've happily adopted a more minimalist approach to life over the last year and while I've done an outstanding job of tossing physical clutter, I've done an equally bad job of getting rid of mental and emotional clutter. This week I plan to make some changes to take some pressure off of myself and try to enjoy life both during my workouts and outside of them. I haven't figured out what changes yet, though, because my first step is to enjoy my rest day tomorrow and not waste a single thought on training until my alarm goes off on Tuesday morning.

I hope you all had a better week than I did and have an even better one this week!


  1. It's so easy to let negative emotions color your workout motivation! After too many bad runs, or too many cranky weight lifting days where my dad is pissing me off, I just dread having to do it again. Lately it's been the latter. Sometimes it's because he's an aggravating person to be around, but sometimes it's just my own bad mood. Even knowing that, it's really hard to shake myself out of it.

    Unrelatedly, I really love the title collage pictures you've had for some of your posts!

  2. Sounds like you had a tough training week! I really love that you are open and write about your training struggles and frustration on your blog. It makes me feel good to know I'm not the only one that just wants to quit runs and go home early sometimes. Hope your training this week goes well!

  3. Hey - great job at getting out there and getting shit done when you didn't feel like it. We all have those days/weeks!

  4. oh, damn girl. i'm so sorry to hear you had a crappy week, i wish there was something i could say or do to make it better! sounds like you sort of got it sorted out by sunday though, i hope you're able to find a good balance with work / life / training both physically and mentally soon.
    ps, miracle scmiracle. of course you'll make it to the finish line!

  5. I really don't want to beat a dead horse, but I saw this once and I think we both need it right now: "Under pressure, you don't rise to the occasion, you sink to the level of your training. That's why we train so hard." That's why spin class is worth it. That's why finishing up that awful run Sunday was worth it. That's why every humid day run is worth it. I say it every week, don't I? You. got. this.

  6. Alyssa said it well! this!! It'll be these weeks that you'll go back to during the race and know that since you made it through that, you can make through this! Just look at your training to date, you've got a lot of mileage so far and that's awesome! That feeling at the finish line in a few months will be worth it!!!